Initially, this blog was intended to talk about my struggles and successes regarding depression and anxiety. I also had two other blogs, one talked about movies and the other talked about travel. What I have found in my time away is several things. First and foremost keeping three blogs updated on any kind of regular basis is crazy. I mean really, when you work three jobs, have family and friends you spend time with, how can you make time to write that much. I mean I guess someone could. But that someone isn’t me. So we are whittling things down. This one blog will host all things I write from this time forward.
That is because I love movies and travel. But I also happen to have depression and anxiety, as well as endometriosis and most likely adenomyosis. ALL of those things are part of who I am. So really there is no need to separate them. Especially when I can tag or categorize everything I write so that people who need to find it, will. I still want to help others who struggle with mental health, by making sure they know they aren’t alone. And by sharing tools and tips that have helped me over the years. But sometimes I will talk about other things. Like today.
A few weekends ago I binge watched Midnight Mass on Netflix. If you haven’t watched it yet, I recommend it. Especially if you like eerie or dark films or TV shows like me. For a mini series there was a decent amount of character development. Pretty much everyone had both good and bad things said or shown about them. And though it is hard to feel for the main character because of his past choices, by the end I defiantly saw him in a different light.
I don’t recall why I chose a mini series with highly religious undertones. I am not religious. Maybe I picked it because it took place on a small island and I wanted to run away to an isolated location. That could be the depression talking, winter in the Midwest is long. Or maybe it was the overwhelm of needing to find a new job so that I don’t have to keep struggling to survive that made me want to run away to a remote island never to be heard from again. Or maybe it was some of both. Or maybe, just maybe, I wanted to figure out how a vampire epidemic could possibly break out on a small island. Whatever the case, I watched all 7 episodes in one weekend.
On this small island, everyone is religious, except for the doctor, no surprise there, which was a little disheartening. I mean there are plenty of religious doctors out there, why do we need to stick to the trope of it being science vs religion. In every episode there is a sermon, and I was prepared to dislike being preached at, that’s why I stopped going to church in the first place, but it wasn’t so bad. Maybe that is because the further into the show I watched the more I realized how, despite all of the talk of God and the apostles, the show highlights how much organized religion, when taken too far is akin to a cult.
Now before you go biting my head off about calling your religion a cult, I am not. I merely pointed out there are similarities between cults and the patrons of the church on the island. Y’ll these people find out they are drinking vampire blood and that their Easter Mass is intended to be a mass suicide so they can turn, and pretty much everyone willingly kills themselves. If that doesn’t highlight misplaced and excessive devotion, I don’t know what else does.
In this day and age most people put celebrities and people on the internet on too high a pedestal And I believe this show perfectly captures the dangers of following the wrong person in all too dark and gruesome a display to ignore.
There was one particular scene that stood out to me. In episode 2 Father Paul and Leeza are walking and talking after mass one day and Leeza asked him where he was from. His answer made me stop and think for a while. “That’s the thing about where we have been. It’s important, sure. But it’s not as important as where we’re going.” Now me, I love to tell people about where I was born (Concord, MA), where I grew up (Petoskey, MI), places I have lived (Deagu, South Korea; Fairbanks, AK; Lahaina, HI) and where I live now. All of those locations have shaped me, and make me part of who I am today. But do they really matter? Do they really tell you about who I am as a person? Do they tell you anything about what path I am on now? Or where I will go in the future? Not really.
Anyways, I found the mini series to be enjoyable to watch and it got me thinking. While watching it I started to think in terms of film theory again, which made me all too excited. If you give it a watch be sure to let me know, that way we can talk about it and not give too much away.